Random post - 1

I just read the "sleepless nights" blog and I was like... "What the hell did I write?????? read LAME. And yes it does. Reads like a 5th grader trying to write a poem by deliberately rhyming the words. So, I told myself "Don't ever do that!!". How I wish I was a much better writer!!. Now then, last weekend was tumultuous to start with, fun in the middle and then uncertainty filled to the end. I think I'll blog about the fun part first. Went to Meramec State park, enjoyed the stay at the cabins. Met all of my friends barring one after 2 years. Yeah! It was FUN. Went trailing the next morning, swam in the river, came back exhausted, went for a brief walk again, set up campfire at night, got drunk, played poker and slept. When it was time to come back, didn't feel like coming back. Monday was grim. Had a meeting with my advisor. I didn't pass the qualifiers. This is one of the reasons I really feel hurt. I'm just hiding it. I probably won't show any emotions (actually I am in this blog), but boy it hurts. It hurts as much as the other thing that I don't want to blog about. I don't know how much of this I can take anymore, but if anything, it definitely has made me into a better person. I've always treated failure as success' equal. Without each other, they don't have any value what so ever. In geek/nerd talk when you put it in the words of a control engineer "deliberately include noise in the system, if there is no such thing, as, a pure system is faulty and will fail eventually. Here, the noise being failure and the pure system being absolute success. All said and done, it still bloody hurts.

I heard a story about a gang of serial murderers and the punishment handed to them. Then there is all this talk about capital punishment in the news. Read a really good article/editorial about capital punishment. So now I have one more topic to write a serious blog on. Which reminds me...I never wrote that blog on Economics I've been postponing for 2 years now. I will when I have enough knowledge and relevant stuff to write on it.

I'm off on a long long awaited trip tomorrow. I hope I have fun again. Until then...

Sayonara
Kashyap