Thursday, April 2, 2009

VERSION II

CHAPTER III

THE GRASS LOOKS GREENER ON THIS SIDE

On the flip side, there is something interesting going on. I will publish what's happening at a later stage. Until then, I have my fingers crossed!

Right now....my room is bustling with friends..that's something that I like unless it interferes with my privacy :)..everyday seems to be a weekend..yet, I'm waiting for weekends :)..(what a lousy bugger I am!!..always wanting a holiday..haha).

I'm mighty happy that the F1 season has started. I want Kimi to win somehow, however, getting ahead of that Brawn car will pose some challenge even to the likes of Kimi, Lewis and Massa. The diffuser is certainly the difference..and for experienced drivers like Jenson Button and Barrichelo..its like a magic wand they can use anytime. I'm also excited about the new rule changes...overtaking looks fun and with the new set of rules from the next season about the drivers' championship..things look verry interesting. :)

Roger lost another semifinal..and to Murray again. I HATE to see Roger lose. I just can't digest the fact that he's losing more matches of late..mostly because of the number of unforced errors! I know how frustrating it must be for Roger, but yes..he has to admit it..his domination over world tennis has faded. If he can come back (which will be bloody brilliant)..make less errors, get more first serves in and not panic on important points like he used to about 3 years back, then there is a very high certainty that he will win at least 2 of the next 3 grand slams this year.
Go Roger!!!

Coming to cricket..India is playing well..they are not particularly playing brilliantly..I mean with consistency. There is a lot of work to do if they have to beat the likes of SA and Australia. There is a lot of promise for the future, but there is lots to do. Sachin is enjoying his game and Dravid is back to form and I'm happy. Should India win this test in Auckland, it will be a very big achievement for the team. Next up is IPL. The atmosphere will certainly be different but SA are great hosts. I want Deccan Chargers to do well and Mumbai Indians to win. Then World T20 and the Champions Trophy..Phew!!!..lott of cricket to come over the next 6 months. Should India win any of these tournaments, boy... its gonna be great!!!!.

In the meanwhile..the selectors should be looking at a good spinner. Somebody who can endure all that international cricket has to offer. A leg spinner who can do at least half what Kumble has done, will be a great find. Piyush Chawla is promising, but is very young and needs loads of guidance.

So many things to keep me busy...so much to follow. I'm finding an excuse in all these activities and neglecting things that give me real pleasure...Sketching, data mining, photography, blogging, workouts, badminton..It's almost as if I have given up sketching (bloody hell!!)..

I have to get back to being active..come what may..and most importantly, I have to do something that will define my future..the only thing that is presently most important to me :).

Speaking of all these..life's not that bad after all...there is always a greener side..it's only for you to find it and make it look really good and promising, and believe me when I tell you..you always have the chance to control your life. So do I and so I will!!!

26 Cheers
Brijesh

Disturbia!!

CHAPTER I

PROBLEM

I don't know what's happening to me of late..I have left reason and logic has abandoned me as a sort of retaliation. It's hurting me from the inside..I have never been in this mental state before..for I know what to do in order to get out of this situation..but strangely enough, I'm waiting for chance to turn my fate into something better. It's a huge risk, in that my life and my career depends on the decisions I make now. I have some pretty promising things happening for me, things that are in my control, but control is something I don't have over myself. It's been a pretty long time since I had a peaceful sleep. I fear getting turned into someone who does not know himself. This is actually bad ..because, it's like I am sitting right in front of the control button with the power to do what I want to do and get to where I want to be, but I'm not doing anything about it. It seems as though my mind is paralyzed. There are things that I want to do, but I am avoiding them for no reason as such. This is annoying!!

CHAPTER II

ANALYSIS

Third week of Jan '07...(can't remember the exact date)..but this was the first indication of things to come. Something happened which I am too shameful to disclose. That triggered the snowballing laziness.

And it gets even worse in that I know the solution to my problem..and I am only shying away from it..for reasons I can't explain..not even to myself..and I am ashamed to say that.

I need to act fast..or else I am sure I WILL LOSE MYSELF..and I cannot let that happen...I cannot live with that guilt.

26 Cheers
Brijesh