Abandoned

The sense of being abandoned and left for ruin...things will seem new over time but it will always be  newness on top of ruins no one can see but me....completeness over absolute hollowness....

Quotes

We are what our thoughts have made us; so take care about what you think. Words are secondary. Thoughts live; they travel far.

~ Swami Vivekananda

I will definitely remember this swamiji. I have wandered and strayed. Not anymore. I hope to develop the strength to stay firm.

The calm and the turbulence

I started off writing this blog with a lot on my mind...eventually I just decided to let it be.

I have so much to say....but I cant...rather...I dont want to....with each passing day there is a lot of turbulence...but then there is a calm....a sense of calm that NO ONE can understand...and someone can only misinterpret. Unfortunate. But thats the truth.

If only....

Realizations...

Many questions lingering on my mind have been answered today....

The void

Two days to go and yet nothing.

I am travelling to India in a couple of days and yet I have no excitement that usually accompanies it. Ofcourse, there is a lot on my mind w.r.t work, but its this void that is slowly seeping in, and with every new day, the void and the silence is deafening, terrifying and engulfing. This time, I dont want to share it with anyone. As one of my friends wrote in her blog - "Staying quiet doesn't mean I have nothing to say. It means you are not ready to hear my thoughts". I'd like to add, staying quiet doesn't mean a disconnection. Some times silence is the best form of expressing ones thoughts when nothing else works and everything else is misunderstood. It is the best way to remain connected to the other person in our own way. But, unfortunately, silence is misunderstood too.

For many reasons, I am very very eagerly looking to getting away from here. I need a change and a vacation and a long one at that. I need to rediscover myself. I wish to go on a sort of road trip for a week, all by myself.

I feel I dont know what I need, but then again, I actually know what I need.

I am looking forward to this trip in great hope.

Cheers to life
Brijesh

If only..... and in parts....

Tum itna jo muskuraa rahe ho

On my mind...

I had a bad day today...but what saddened me was an article about a man whose wife and infant daughter died and no one cared to help. What has become of us as human beings? I'm sure all the people who just went past the man and his 4 year old son must have felt bad for the man...but what will it take for people in India to show some human values? We blame politicians for our plight, but in actuality we deserve only that. We aren't bothered about fellow human beings, how can we expect to be treated better by others? Really, what has become of us?? Is this what education is teaching us?

Stagnation

I need to get out of this place...This place has nothing to offer to me other than a degree now. But am I ready to go out? Am I prepared to go out? Maybe not, but some times you have to just dive into the water to see how deep it is and fight hard to float back and learn to swim to keep ur head above the water.

I can't get out of this place atleast until december. I have to endure, but this time, to be better prepared. I need to get out of this place. I have to get out of this place. I want to get out of this place.

~Kashyap