27th year of my life

By far...this has been the worst year of my life by many accounts.Largely I haven't been myself. Honestly I shudder to even think about it, but again I'm happy it has passed and left me with a better insight into my personality. Now, I have to get back to being ME. But honestly, its because of this 27th year, I have matured as a person. I know how not to be from my experiences.

So, when I am 27, I would have dealt with many of the things I wouldn't have liked to address otherwise. So, I guess I can safely say one of my worst years (or perhaps the worst) is behind me and things can get better from here. How good it gets is almost entirely in my hands. So here I am, on the 24th saying 27 cheers to the 28th year of my life about to start on the 26th :)

~Kashyap

The story of the 1/- Re coin

I was so lost in thoughts that I didn't realize that the book in my hand had slipped..when I did, I went searching for it in the market...couldn't find it anywhere..then....2 kids who seemed younger to me, came and gave me the book...they asked for Re 1/-...so i unwillingly gave them the rupee I had saved for "chikki" (groundnut jaggery sweet or whatever..we used to get 4 for Re1/-)...i felt like kicking myself in the nuts ( and honestly I was a little happy that it was practically not possible)..such was my rage and repentance...then i hear the 2 kids running towards me..and...they give me back my Re 1/-...i couldn't believe it..I could see a certain pride in their faces..it was like they had this air or superiority for showing some compassion towards me..but there was a lot of honest intent involved...i forgot about all the repentance in about 10 seconds after telling myself to be careful...so then... I went to school..bought 4 chikkies and shared them with friends...and in the end it turned out I didn't get to eat even half of one chikki...

I realized that 1/- Re wasn't meant to be mine afterall..but its memory lingers...its not a sweet memory...not something that taught me to be careful and I refer to it now when I ought to be careful...its just simply a memory...its a part of my childhood I just seem to remember...but strangely...it always makes me happy when I think about it :)

p.s. I even have a visual emeory of the entire morning and the 1/- Re coin :)

Cheers

Kashyap